Who Would Have Thought?

well this has been genuinely hard for myself for some reason but at least I do have ppl in my life that can understand and relate and be there for me even in the smallest of situations. I do praise God for sending me the beautiful wonderful ppl that are grateful to have me in their lives as well as I enjoy them in mine. I couldn't ask for a better life, better friend, better everything because I do understand that God does have plans for me in my life and everything, every situation just makes you see true ppl, true love or lust or friendship. Even tho my anger and frustration has settled down a little bit I'm still fighting within myself to control it =]]. It's been ok. Not where I wish it would be or more over not even be. But it's there. Lurking. And I am trying my hardest to just fix the problem but it's hard when even you comfront the problem; it still decides to take it's course to continue on it's path. Which, for me, is really hard to fix for some reason. And the thing is that I do understand. I understand the salvation but it's more than that. It's wayy more than just the salvation of someone- it's something that I don't even understand. I'm there for both sides. Want to be there for both sides but I've decided to quit seeing how both sides just want to be left alone. So I will unwillingly respect that. I will. Just don't bring me or anyone else along for a third wheel. It really isn't all the nicest feeling in the world. But I suppose there could be worse huh? Yeah. Well who knows where friendship will continue in it's path but what I do know is that the last decision-- is God's decison.