busy.

i've been meaning to write back in response to your blog :P but i never got to it but i'll just type a quick little note right now... i've gotta get to studying. lame.

but yes ma'am, next week or so we need to write down our goals and set them in stone. it's pooey how we all have different schedules but it's going to work out no matter what. i believe our love for God is yearning to reach a deeper level. i think the best kind of love is the kind that compels you to act ... then again if it doesn't, then it isn't love at all.

it's a little difficult finding time to go to church wednesday nights and cell group thursday nights... during the week is going to be difficult especially once i start working. i am demanding my sundays completely off! lol. and i'll also have to be volunteering around 8 hours a week. eek. on top of that studying... and learning how to really really really really be responsible and mature about it all at the same time! phew.

but most importantly of all, i always remember God. i remember everything He's done for me. i wake up in the mornings and thank God that i did. i lay my head down on my pillow at night and tell Him good night and "I love you." i'll tell Him everything on my mind or sometimes i'll just lay still in His presence. i don't ever want to get too busy for Him. and the times that i do feel like i have too much to do, i'll remember this poem ...

THE DIFFERENCE

I got up early one morning, and rushed right into the day:

I had so much to accomplish that I didn't have time to pray.

Problems just tumbled about me, and heavier came each task.

Why doesn't God help me?" I wondered.

He answered, "You didn't ask".

I wanted to see joy and beauty, but the day toiled on, gray and bleak:

I wondered why God didn't show me.

He said, But you didnt' seek".

I tried to come into God's presence:

I used all my keys at the lock.

God gently and lovingly chided.

"My child, you didn't knock".

I woke up early this morning, and paused before entering the day:

I had so much to accomplish that I had to take time to pray.

always remember the One who created you and knew you before you were even formed in your mother's womb. it's hard living in today's world with all the other things that can distract us, but remember just because something is difficult doesn't make it impossible. nothing is impossible with my God.

God isn't just a section of my life. He isn't labeled as "Go to once a week." God is my love, Christ my deepest desire - the way, the truth, and the life. Jesus has poured into every single area of my life ... I asked Him to fill this cup, and He gave me the ocean.

- ness.

Just A Shout Of Praise.

So this seems great. I'm glad to know how great and AMAZING our God works in answering our prayers and giving us more than what we ask for by far. Praise God for everything in my life. Good and Bad. Happy and Sorrow. I really appreciate all that He's changed in my life and even your's and those who believe =]]. So... since we've always talked about being part of a church I say we do something. Say maybe become part of the worship team at 3DG or something. That'd be awesome. Or their drama team WHOO! oK Nessa and Kristian. It's time to take action instead of just saying. Let's start... obviously next week cuz we're going to cornerstone this week lol but seriously. ALSO! Don't forget saving up money for probably next summers for a missionary trip =D so exciting! But we totally need to make goals for ourselves... more than that though. Well see you guys later hopefully on wed. ^_^

<3 Lyndsey

Answered Prayer

Ok so for one I just want to thank God for being just extremely AWESOME !!! This weekend could not have gone any more perfect....here's how it unraveled...Saturday spent time with these REALLY AMAZING kids and of course my REALLY AMAZING friends also spent time with my extremely MEXICAN familia which too was AMAZING...Sunday went to church with my parents which was a prayer of mine that was answered the message was meant for every single one of us and God's presences was abundant in our church....Sunday night went out with some friends and my favorite little brother Joshua...I went out with this guy who I think is very handsome and a couple of our friends and before we went out with them I prayed that God would some how intervene whenever temptation was right around the corner and He did which was something that me and my guy friend really appreciated :D it wasn't anything too bad He just intervened and prevented any premature kisses that's it !!! but it's thoes kisses that can lead to something else (YUCK >:p) so yea and I just realized that God knows exactly what He is doing and that good things do come to those that wait :) and as much as I like this guy I just really have this ardent passion and desire to NOT put him anywhere near or before God because then that's a big NO! NO! and what I really like is that he totally respects that :) and he's a catholic who seems interested in Christianity so I pray that God uses me to talk to Him but I also pray that I don't get so caught up in winning him for the Lord and totally forget about my own walk with God...If that makes sense? so yea **sigh** everything seems to be pretty darn perfect ? Thank you Jesus <3 Kris

a mystery.

God.

in those three letters lies the mystery, the unfailing promise, the reason that i breathe.

and i think that's the best part of it: the fact that we're human and we don't know everything. there are people in this life who miss out on everything ... who are so concerned with knowing all the facts. and sure, it's logical, but i think other people can get really pissed off when they don't know something. it's pride, it's arrogance, it's selfishness.

i think that's why a lot of people can't accept the idea of God. they can't accept His Grace either. Why in the world would He send His son to die for us? I've heard many times, of how people think it's stupid, that He simply could have just forgiven us for our sins in two seconds if He wanted to, right? Of course He could have.

But He didn't. Do you understand the living God? That He is the God that has the mind to come down to this earth and walk among us, to suffer every trial and tribulation. I think that takes an extreme, an incredible, an indescribable, unfathomable amount of humility. That marks the genuine heart of love.

It's weird. I think about how He created this world. All of this. Everything around us, He knew what He was doing and He knew what was going to happen. He exists outside of time. He knew our hearts before He formed them. He set us all in certain places at certain times. and i wonder why He created us if He knew that sin was going to come into the world.

this sounds extremely crazy, but think about it. everything ... it all led up to the ultimate act of love.

why do i love God? because He first loved me.

there's something about love. i mean ... even with God. you see, we could argue all day. or you can read up on all the religious and philosophical books you want. you can go to church as much as you want, listening and learning and writing it down in a notebook. you can say you love God. you can even claim to be "Christian" and not cuss or have sex before marriage. you can be the most religious person in the entire world! but that's not it ... that's nowhere near what it is.

it's not just believing in Jesus and going to heaven. it's not just saying "i'm a christian!" this life is about falling in love with Christ.

you see ... being a christian ... is more than just the title. it's not a religion. i can honestly say that. even Jesus didn't agree with the most religious leaders. Jesus tore the veil.

there's something that goes beyond the facts. it goes beyond just knowing what Jesus did and religious doctrines. nothing can describe the true experience of God's love. nothing.

religion works from the outside in. but God changes you from the inside out. religion is a list of do's and dont's. Christianity is spelt "done!" religion is just knowing about Jesus. but christianity is knowing Jesus. there is something incredible, something unspeakable when I sit in His presence. and that's the thing, that i can't explain it. that's what i love. and i can't put it in a box and wrap a red ribbon around it. and i never will ... we can't wrap our minds around a God that is so big. the more that i try to define it, the more that i degrade it.

why is there suffering from a loving God? i could say so much about this. but i'll sum it up for you. sin is present in this world and that's the reality of it. and it's difficult seeing murderers or cheaters or liars that get away with things. we want justice. why do these evil men and women live? think about it. should God kill them before they do evil deeds? should he judge rapists and thieves now? i think we easily miss the point if we think He's hateful. we serve a God that is loving enough and patient enough to wait for these people to make a choice, as He does not want anyone to perish.

there's a good reason for trials in our lives. there is evil that has brought suffering, but i always think there's something good brought out from it under God's direction. and we wonder if the juice is worth the squeeze. if our consequences are worth our actions. but of course, only God can judge that since our perspective is so limited. but for me, i honestly believe that after every "bad" thing that has happened in my life, it has changed me so much more for the better. and what i mean is that i've grown. the best part is that i haven't just grown up - i've grown closer to Christ. nothing in this world will ever beat that.

look at the story of Job. my friend was arguing with me about it, saying how God is just a manipulative being that plays around with our lives as if we are insignificant. Job may have been the most faithful servant, but he was not without sin. The point is that God wasn't simply just proving a point to Satan. It's more than a "bet." When God asks a question, He already knows the answer. He knew of Satan's activities and what was going to happen. We need to understand that God had purposes for Job's good that could only come through that arduous path of testing. Suffering can be a sacred trust that brings you to full dependence on God.

the funny thing is, i'm not so scared anymore. instead of fearing what's to come, we should welcome trials, hardships, difficult situations. sounds crazy, right? well i'll let you know, that i am crazy in love.

at this very moment in time, today, i can honestly say i've never trusted God this much. there's so much that i could say ... but the main point is that we are destined to reign, to enjoy life, to live for God. everyday is a constant struggle that i can't get enough of. because i understand. i understand He has a purpose for everything! every single little and big thing! no matter what happens, it turns out to be better than before!

i can remember how angry i was with my mom. i could almost say that i even hated her ... but someone told me that He would not have made her my mother if there wasn't a reason for it. even if i don't agree with her, she's still my mother. and with the way she is and the things she does... if she wasn't like that, I wouldn't have been the person I am today. when he said that to me... it was so eye-opening. and then he said that He didn't make her your mother to annoy you or harm you, but possibly to make you stronger for what lies ahead.

even in the midst of suffering, i have an unbroken peace. it's so hard to comprehend, let alone explain. but mystery is one way that God moves. it's understanding without fully knowing. it is riches when you don't have. it is strength when we are weak.

the key is to be tough, not hard. tragedy wants to harden us, and we should never let it. and i understand we all go through difficult times. they're all different and i can't judge to say who suffers more than who; but God really never does give you more than you can handle. all you have to do is ask the Savior for help, and lift it up to Him. easier said than done. but it's incredible. out of the 6 billion plus people that live on this planet, God loves you as if you were the only one.

when you seem like you can't move on, that you can't ever climb out of that pit, remember ...

for the believer, this life is as close to hell as you will ever get. for the nonbeliever, this is life is as close to heaven as they will ever get.

i understand that it is hard to remember there are other people in the world. but it's time for us to quit acting like children, and take a step back to look at the big picture. we all walk different paths, and how amazing is it that we have all met, even if just for a moment, and that we have the time to walk this path together. we have a higher purpose. i sincerely believe that us girls (here on breakfr33) have the hearts that we do for a reason. no matter what we go through, God has given us the strength to rise above it all!

=== i praise You, Father. not only because of the things that You've given me, or the people you have placed in my life. I praise You, adore You, simply for who You are. ===

- ness.

Be A servant of others

There are times in our lives when we just want someone to show us that we are not forgotten and that we are loved...and not all the time do we find that in the right places or in the right people...but when we diligently seek God, He will send the The Great Comforter in our time of despair...and I thank God for presenting me and Nessa and Lynz with the opportunity to be the hands of God and volunteer our time with some kids who have endured their share of hardships and their share of rainy days...some of these kids were taken away from their parents or family members because of an array of abuses and/or neglect...and when you meet these kids they are truly one of a kind genuine in their actions and their ways of expressing gratitude...and it truly is heart wrenching to know that they have gone through some very traumatizing times in their lives at such young ages and that majority of the time the ones who they expected to protect them was the VERY one who inflicted the harm or the one who allowed others to mistreat and misuse the children...but when you meet them you would have never thought that they had been through such tragic situations...they are very joyful and just filled with youth...they are filled with child like wonder and innocence...and it's extremely hard to even imagine why someone would want to just give up on parenting them? Their smiles and laughter lighten up your day and their goodbyes make you just wish that y'alls time together never ended...the first time that I had gone to volunteer I had prayed that God would use me to speak to them but God works in such miraculous ways...he used them to speak to me...their stories, their humility, and their gratitude really made me stop and think... these are only but a few kids who by God's grace alone were delivered from danger right in the nick of time how many other children have lost their lives or have just been written off by the world as no good? How many of these children have been told that they will amount to nothing? How many of them sit in their rooms waiting to be adopted by a loving family or put in foster care... how many of them pray that God would help heal their parents or guardians from their addiction...and yet they receive no answer...how many of them despise God for "putting them in that situation"? How many of them have turned to drugs or sex or even thoughts of suicide because they feel as though they are forgotten? We as Christians need to take action and show these kids and many others that they are loved and that they are not forgotten...we MUST tell them that God holds their lives in the palm of His hand and that He delivered them from the nightmare that they called their "life" and sent His children (us) to minister to them through our words and our actions... We need to tell them that God never meant to harm them and that He only wants a prosperous life for them...I do not see this as a means of accumulating community service hours...I don't volunteer my time so that when it in can make my resume look very impressive...nor do I do this to receive praise from those around me...I do this because God has called me to show His love to those in need of His love...and I pray that He continues to present me with these life changing opportunities...to be a helping hand to those in need and to be filled with His uplifting words to the down trodden..."Mark 12:31 And the second is like, namely this, thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these." "Matthew 19:14 But Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven" "Matthew 5:16 Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven."
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It's gotta be love

Have you ever stopped and thought of how marvelous God's love is? Lately I've been noticing God's love moving me in away like never before. I tend to find myself being used by God to minister to my own family as often as I can...I find that whenever life seems overwhelming all I need to do is think of the love of God and there's this peace that just consumes me in a way that is like no other...and to try to explain the feeling is like watering down the real truth...I find myself more happy and content with the real me I find myself in this state of mind that is something like floating on a cloud...and yea I don't exactly know what it is like to float on a cloud but I imagine it to be the way I feel whenever I get consumed with the love and peace of God...I find myself talking with God more than before and I wake up every morning with hope and a peace of mind that whatever God has store for me is going to be something that will break or make me like in the words of Rose Allen Munt " And I trust in His mercies, that if He calls me to it, He will enable me to bear it" I find myself falling in love with God more and more each day and I hope that I would never find myself complacent in my relationship with Him...each day I seek Him the more He reveals Himself to me...each day that I talk to Him the more I hear His voice...each day that I reach out to Him the more I feel Him closer to me...I feel Him in every breath I take...I feel Him in every heart beat..because I know that it is Him alone that gives me each breath of life and each ryhtmic heart beat...I see Him in the faces of strangers and I hear Him sing his melody through the birds in the sky...I feel Him breathe in each passing breeze...I see His splendor each morning when the sun rays shine through my window blinds...it truly is a divine romance that I hope will never end but only grow and that when others see me they may be able to long for what I have and that they may come and ask me why I am beaming with joy so that I may say to them "For the Joy of the Lord is my strength." Once you surrender your life to God and truly experience His love there's no going back and quite honestly there's NO desire to go back to ways that were never fulfilling...you don't ask for olms for anyone anymore...you stop looking for love in all the wrong places...you get this amazing sense of self-worth...the list goes on and so does God's love...A circle has no beginning and no end. God is like a circle. He has no beginning and no end. In this life we have material things that wear out or break down. In contrast, God's endless love never wears out. God's love has no beginning and no end. God's love is infinite. What this means to you is no matter how much you might stray away from what God wants from you, His endless love remains. God's endless love keeps going forever on into infinity and God's will for you is that you would travel with Him into the future on the wings of His love. In your life, when you think you have run out of energy, God's endless love remains. When you think you have run out of options or choices, God's endless love remains. When you think you have run out of friends or people to help you, God's endless love remains. When all seems lost, God's endless love remains. When it seems there is no help to be found, God's endless love remains. No matter what happens to you in this life, God's endless love remains, constantly enfolding and wrapping around you forever. (www.findthepower.com) Our God is an Awesome God and I can't imagine myself continuing to live a life that is empty and meaningless...I can't imagine living a life without His undying love !!! Madly in Love with Him <3 Kristian

Ami

Just a reminder that we need to keep Ami in our prayers as her depature day for God's calling to the Philippines draws closer!!! Thanx gals :D

JOB not job like the one I have at HCO

OK so last night I was reading the book of Job...I've always been fascinated with his testimony and to know that he never cursed God but rather praised Him in the midst of all his turmoil...and I've recently found myself praying that God would break me down and test me so that I may withstand all the trials and tribulations that are yet to come...and quite honestly I didn't think that it was possible to praise God in the midst of all lives turmoils and to continue to thank Him for what is yet to come. In Job 2:10 He tells his wife..."shall we not indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?", that verse in itself was an eye opener I noticed how willing we are to accept the blessings of God but when it comes to His chastening we quickly want to say no or why me? as I continued to read Job I stumbled across this other verse Job 5:17 "Behold happy is the man whom God corrects: Therefore do not despise the chastening of the Almighty" and of course it's way easier said than done to "accept God's chastening" but when you stop and think about it those who correct you, do not correct you to call you out, they only correct you because they are aware of the potential that you obtain and that's exactly what God sees when He brings our sins to the light. I just think that God is so amazing in how he reveals such precious gems of wisdom to us through reading His word...and knowing that there is so much more to be learned through His word only makes me long for It even more so than before.

It's ironic how I grew up in the Church and went to private school and never truly took advantage of God's word only because I knew that It was always going to be there...I knew that whatever class room I walked into there was going to be some verse from the Bible and that there were going to be banners hanging all around me with scripture on it...but now that I'm not surrounded by God's word so much as I was before, I find myself looking and longing for It...I know I went off on a different tangent but I was thinking about that last night... I asked God why is that we live in a free country where we can read His word without having to worry about being persecuted for it...and yet we do absolutely nothing about it? All different types of people save up their lives earnings just to come live over here where they can worship our God in freedom? Do we have to suffer such an extreme such as communism to truly appreciate God's word? I feel that now more than ever we need to draw close to God and hide His word in our heart because there will come a day when we will not have such an easy access to the Bible or to Church or to anything really that pertains to Jesus Christ...in Revelations the Bible talks about a time when God will remove Himself from us...and knowing that that time may be at hand I feel that we should hide His word and etch it upon our hearts...that way when the hard times start rolling in like the waves onto the shore, we would have some source of comfort... "I pledge allegiance to the Bible God's Holy word. I will make it a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. I will hide God's word in my heart that I might not sin against God" - AMEN
<3 kristian

I need to do some serious soul searching...and as lame and retarded as that may seem it's true...I feel like I'm so far from where I truly want to be spiritually and physically...I thought that coming up with a New Year's Resolution would really put things into perspective for me and it has...it's put into perspective how far I am from God and how I'm dying inside without Him...there's this Sunday School Hymn that says if you read your Bible and pray every day you will grow, grow, grow...if you don't read your Bible and don't pray every day you will shrink, shrink, shrink...and for so many years I would sing that song never realizing and understanding the truth that was behind the lyrics....I always hear myself praying that God would break me down til "I, KRISTIAN LAUREN JIMENEZ" no longer exist but now I am at a cross-roads asking myself how serious was I about that prayer? And a part of me says I was/am serious about the prayer but the other part of me says it's not so easy letting go of your OWN life to something and someone that you can't exactly see...I know that God exist but maybe I just have a problem with submitting my life to someone who I have not seen but I know without a shadow of doubt that He exist...I feel as though I'm at a constant tug-of-war between my logic and emotions...how do I surrender all that I have all that I am to Him?

the grace of God.

been a while since i wrote in here. i just read kristian's blogs. but actually i will probably type a super long blog thingamajig after i put all the groceries away and such. be back in a bit ...

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okay. so i tried going to sleep but my mind was racing with thoughts. not that it's such a bad thing, just when my mind fills up like this, it's best to empty it out as soon as possible.

i already told lyndz the story of what happened this past week but i've yet to tell kristian.. but here we go.

i got what i asked for. i asked Him to test me ... but why did i fail? why am i so weak?

so before what did happen, i could really see how my desires had changed to become a missionary. not just a convert, but a disciple of Jesus. and i never really knew how my choice of career of becoming a nurse was really in line with that dream. then my friend phil helped me open my eyes, when he said that his friend was a nurse who went to africa and cared for the sick. and i seriously wanted to prepare myself for battle, arming myself with God's word. i had been praying for a devotional book. it seems like a silly thing to pray for, but i really wanted one. haha. and it's so funny how i prayed for one and now i have several: many people have given me devotional books.

i was learning so much, and in the moments of reflecting on His Word, i came to know the difference between knowing about Jesus and knowing Jesus. i started reading up on Christian apologetics (which is arguments for the defense of the Christian faith) and started to really truly understand why i believe what i believe. my foundation felt firmer and stronger than before. and it's not something i can honestly explain to you guys. it's the experience that you just need to experience yourself.

the truth is that the closer you draw to God, the more temptation and trials are thrown at you. let me honestly say that the Christian life doesn't mean the easy life. the more i prayed to come closer to Christ, the farther away i felt. and to me, it was an intense and strong temptation, perhaps the strongest i've ever felt in my entire life. and i gave in.

i never knew what it meant with the whole "true love waits." i never knew how strong and how much willpower a woman of God needs. i never knew how fragile my morals really were.

sure, it felt like the devil targeting me. as if he almost knew that i was going to do great things in the name of Jesus. but it's not just him. it's me also. you see, what hurts me the most isn't that it happened, but that i myself had the willpower to stop it. it was my choice, and i now have to deal with the consequences. i could have stood for purity, for strength, truth, and integrity, but now i find myself mired in this fog of hypocrisy and selfishness. it could have been so easily avoided! i could have stopped it ...

and there i was, sitting on the floor in front of the heater, crying out to God. as i stared endlessly into my reflection, wondering why did i do what i did, i felt hurt. and the thing is that i have never been at this point before. in my entire life, i've never really felt like i needed forgiveness for anything. i mean, i was raised in church, and although i never really cared about it, i thought i was a pretty good person. and looking at my reflection, questioning myself and realizing that i needed a major mentality transformation, i saw how being good isn't the standard that God measures by. for the first time in my life, i cried for forgiveness, for mercy, i cried "Lord, where are You ... Father, please take me back." and i heard another voice...

"Child, I never left you."

lyndz. kristian. take this advice seriously. it's easier to avoid temptation than to get out of it.

don't play with fire. and you don't need to be like me, to learn lessons the hard way. i think that's why i needed this wake-up call. i'm a stubborn person. i'm hard-headed. i need to like....be smacked upside the head... several times in order to learn some things.

but that's the way that God works sometimes. not the smacking upside the head thing ... but more of refining yourself into the person He created you to be ... the person that you are destined to become.

although it feels like i've failed God's test, after being slain in the holy spirit today, i feel different. before coming to church today, i felt like crap. terrible. unworthy of God's love. i felt like ... i wasn't deserving of anything. and i didn't know why i did the things i did, and i felt unreachable. it was an extremely low point.. and when my elder was praying over me, i told her that i was lost. i was in need of a Savior. that i didn't want the life i once had anymore. i didn't want to lead a life of hiding my sin. i was pushed to my limits.. my tears were uncontrollable, my body fell, and at that point i was healed.

how was i healed at this point? my lustful desires are gone. honestly. gone. it's incredible. i didn't think that type of healing would take place! God simply molded my heart, cleansed it, purified it, and He has made me whole! the most incredible feeling i've had in my entire life, i never knew healing like this. i can say... this is a miracle. i mean ... these desires usually take so much of your own strength to make it die, but i came to the Savior, and He lifted it from me!

and looking back on it all, i do understand, like lyndz said, of how every downfall makes you stronger. God has the power to show you who's God. i think the trials that happen in your life really have a way of shaping you into either a humble person or a prideful person. i was really planning on hiding this, of never letting anybody know..ever. but pride is such a hindrance. God doesn't want us to be like that, to say that we don't need to change and we can just do whatever we like. there are times when you need to admit you're wrong, fall on your knees, and ask for forgiveness.

i understand the grace of God a lot more now. one of the things that sets Christianity apart from other religions is that God loves the sinner. i've heard it so many times, but knowing how it feels.. knowing that God's love is that AWESOME, that INCREDIBLE, that UNCONDITIONAL... knowing that He takes you as you are! knowing that the other false gods despise you and hate you and desert you when you don't please them or do as they say. it is God that loves you even when you reject Him! to me...that is the greatest love of all.

i think the way i used to think ...it was really silly. hoping i would never fall again. but the greatest victory comes not from never falling, but getting back up again. i believe to be the person i wish to be, it takes an incredible amount of strength. i think that's who God wants me to be. all of this makes me want to fight that much more. usually i would be discouraged from something like this, but i realized that's another trick to make me fall away from Christ. i think to be different is to be strong. this world is full of broken people, unhappy people, and i'm going to stand for what's right, what's true, and i believe this happened for a reason. i am created to show people the good work He has done, is doing, and will continue to do!

let me say that after a taste of the forbidden fruit, i want out of that life. it's unsatisfying, and like Kristian said, God filled man with eternity. and no one, not your family, your friends, not even your husband, is going to fill that void in your heart like Jesus Christ.

looking back on it all.. it seems like a bad situation at the surface. but in the bible it says that God uses the bad and turns it around for the good. God is changing me, molding me, and has really just... allowed me to mature in the most incredible and amazing way. today at church i saw in the bible that it says how all bitterness, anger and wrath, insult and slander must be removed from you, along with all wickedness. and be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving one another, just as God also forgave you in Christ. (Eph 4:31-32). it's simply another trial that has pushed me closer to Him, that has really shaped my perserverance. let me say that my morals are stronger, my strength to resist temptation is stronger, my faith is stronger, and more importantly, my love for the Savior, for the Alpha and Omega, for the Prince of Peace, for the Way, the Truth, and the Life - for Jesus Christ is stronger than ever!

... i got what i asked for.

bring it on, 2009!

- ness