breakfr33

Mann... Idk. I really don't know. and it sucks. School sucks. Home sucks. Phone sucks. Txts suck. Friends house sucks. Idk what's wrong with me. eMo side's creeping back up... not good yo. Maybe it's my lack of church involvement. Idk. I do miss it tho. Can't wait till I get a car. Can't wait to graduate. Can't wait for college. Can't wait for a job. I just wish I wasn't or didn't have to be so dependent on other people... all the time. Rides, money, time, homework, school, friendship, whatever. Why can't I just be free? Free from home, free from frustration, free from me basically. I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know what's expected... nothing prolly. I don't know me. I don't know who I want to be. I don't know. I understand but then I don't. I see things one way and the next it's totally different. Days are running together. Tomorrow is saturday, today is sunday, slowww but yett so fastt at the same time. Too much to do in so little time. Taking away that time from others sucks too cuz it ends up being your fault for not letting other people study or get done what they need to because their to busy with your own erands you know. I wish my mom was more responsible. More supportive. Mostly. Mostly here at least. What will happen when I'm gone? I don't know. God... please just let everything be ok. Let my strength overpower what's yet to come. To fight myself from myself and society. To break free from everything.... every bad thing in my life Lord please. I'm so messed up in my head right now and it's hard to not listen to the bad side. But yes Lord... the Devil is working his evil ways against me and pulling me towards his side but I will breakfr33. Thank you Lord, for everything =]] You are what keeps me alive and breathing in the beauties of the world rather than being sucked into sex, drugs, and money. I AM STRONG. I Love You.