Going Through The Motions.

Ok so I'm weird. I've always wanted someone that I could talk to about anything.... anything at all... as small of a problem it is or a big problem right? Who doesn't? BUT! (here's the issue) I also don't like talking to those around me about such problems. Hmm. I don't like that. I think I can pour my whole heart and soul into telling a totally stranger my whole life story rather than my friends. And I would rather talk to a strager. I wonder sometimes why... Idk. I don't feel comfortable talking to people I already know. I love strangers. Strange... because they talk to me too. I love trusting in people which I don't even know if I can trust. And although I only have one person to talk to about anything and who really understands every single motion I'm going through with no complaints or arguments just listens... it doesn't seem to be enough. I guess I'm not the best at sharing my feelings with the ones I love... or friends in general. Not because I think they'll judge me or anything. But because I'd rather listen to them than myself. I guess that's a problem sometimes with me... is that... I don't care enough about my own problems because I know for a FACT I'll be alright in the end, so I take it day by day with no motions because its ok... its always ok. Who can I talk to about anything? Besides my stranger friends lol And I know I can trust my friends, always. But there's something that keeps me from that. Because we've already gone through this problem and I think I might just leave it alone this time. lol. But ugh... how annoying... I'd rather talk to myself in this blog to ease these emotions T_T I don't like that either lol But it'll be great! Its alll gooooood.....

<3 Z