Hmm... so this school AND work stuff isn't as bad as I thought it'd be. But maybe cuz its still early in the semester but I think I'll be good considering I have at least an hour in between each class =]] its great! cuz I still get to sleep too... and get weekends off! =D And its odd how its thundering outside like crazy... scary. Its not even raining! Lol Hmm... so like I really love this movie "50 First Dates" its interesting and creative, cute and funny. And I love Adam Sandler and Drew Berrymore =]] if that's how you spell her last name.
SO! interesting enough... my english professor kinda kicked me out of class earlier in the week for not having my book T_T really annoying cuz we were supposed to read this story in there and then write an essay in class whether we understood it or not right? So I read it and took notes... but didn't bring my book... I did bring my notes tho... and she got all angry and told me to "step outside" and do nothing till class was over T_T I really don't like her. I don't like her unnecessary comments like "Get out of my face eMo boy!" and "Ha... I just talked about myself in third person... ha" NOT EVEN FUNNY! lol so I dropped her class =]] lol hopefully my new english professor isn't as bad... Idk!
But I've meet great and interesting people that I hang out with during my breaks now ^_^ I do love that... and my Japanese class is AWESOMEE! lol And I've been doing well with studying early and getting things done ON TIME without procrastinating =]] so I'm proud of that! =D
Busy... quite busy. So busy that I have to stop sometimes and just think... just pray... just talk to God... which I haven't been doing the best job at lately which is totally horrible cuz being busy shouldn't bring my list of importance (God being numbero uno) any lower; which has kinda made me disappointed in myself but I'm working on not being so busy ALL the time. And every little time I get... even at work... I pray for a bit... so its nice =]]

<3 Z

First Day Of School Again Mommy.

Well today was great... better than great... it was AWEESOMEE!!! lol I love having met so many new ppl. Its amazing to hear their stories =]] I LOVE it! lol So again with this stranger deal... I met a young woman today named, Ashley B.(forgot her last name and am too lazy to look in my phone lol) and its her senior year finally. *FREEZE! FLASHBACK BEFORE WE CONTINUE THIS STORY* It was weird cuz like Pastor Bob was talking last night about how whatever God tells you to do... do it! To be obediant... and that delayed obediance is disobediance. *SO HAVING THAT BEEN SAID WE CONTINUE WITH THE STORY:* I had gotten out of my first class wondering what I should do before my next class in an hour... so I was walking along... and I saw her, Ashley... and immediately God, for His amazing reasons, told me... so simply... "Go." And I did, with no questions asked. And I was thinking as I sat down next to her, "Alright God I'm here... now what 0_0" lol "Just talk to her.", He said. "Fine... lol" So I did, I just simply asked her something, I forgot what it was tho lol and we started talking. She is 22 (I think) and has a 4 yr. old boy who just turned 4 like two or three days ago. She just had a divorce too. AND her major is Sociology. Awesome! We have something in common lol. Well I could tell that she hasn't been saved or anything just by her words and some stories she's told BUT what was great about it was that she held on to me... it was nice. She needed to go so she wrote down her number and email for me on a paper it was cute lol cute because she needs someone... I didn't even ask nor did she ask for mine. I know that she's need the grace of God to flow through her life for what she's going through right now and to support her son as well so I'm praying for her. So! I will continue my journey with her through God's will... excited for what's to come. Thanks Lord for all your guidance... and I will continue to do what you ask, always.

<3 Z

BoRedom of Random Thoughts =]]

So instead of asking God "why"... why don't we ever ask "why not?". Why not let us suffer, why not let us fear, why not let His glory of love and compassion flow through our spirits. Why not? Through good and bad times you know. Hmm.. so Idk where I'm going with this but its interesting how fast we fall and how hard it is to climb back up. Kind of annoying I think. Relationships with everyone is hard... SO! the moral of the story today kids is... "Stay In School"

<3 Z

Wait and See.

So I just listened to this song called "Wait and See" by Brandon Heath and I've heard it many times and know the lyrics and everything by heart. But until TODAY! it just hit me in a spiritual way. I LOVE these lyrics with a passion and would love to hear it again in a couple of seconds. Lol But it is extremely GREAT to know, know with your own spirit, heart, soul, and mind that God has a plan for every single one of us living today. "He's not finished with me yet" OMG! LOOOVEE ITT!!! And because God won't ever forget His plans for you and you will just have to Wait and See His amazing plans he's made for only you alone. Its mindblowing I think. Because if you ever think about it... we (as "Christians") have our salvation, have our promises, and Words of God to fill us up every single day with no thirst or hunger in ourselves because He's always with us. Even when we don't know it or feel His presence within our selves every second of the day we still got that one and only true God by our side and we'll just have to Wait and See what happens through God's Will ALONE!

<3 Z

Going Through The Motions.

Ok so I'm weird. I've always wanted someone that I could talk to about anything.... anything at all... as small of a problem it is or a big problem right? Who doesn't? BUT! (here's the issue) I also don't like talking to those around me about such problems. Hmm. I don't like that. I think I can pour my whole heart and soul into telling a totally stranger my whole life story rather than my friends. And I would rather talk to a strager. I wonder sometimes why... Idk. I don't feel comfortable talking to people I already know. I love strangers. Strange... because they talk to me too. I love trusting in people which I don't even know if I can trust. And although I only have one person to talk to about anything and who really understands every single motion I'm going through with no complaints or arguments just listens... it doesn't seem to be enough. I guess I'm not the best at sharing my feelings with the ones I love... or friends in general. Not because I think they'll judge me or anything. But because I'd rather listen to them than myself. I guess that's a problem sometimes with me... is that... I don't care enough about my own problems because I know for a FACT I'll be alright in the end, so I take it day by day with no motions because its ok... its always ok. Who can I talk to about anything? Besides my stranger friends lol And I know I can trust my friends, always. But there's something that keeps me from that. Because we've already gone through this problem and I think I might just leave it alone this time. lol. But ugh... how annoying... I'd rather talk to myself in this blog to ease these emotions T_T I don't like that either lol But it'll be great! Its alll gooooood.....

<3 Z

My Future in His Hands.

Hmm... as much as I love God... I wonder. What is His GREAT plan for me? You know... and I don't mind waiting for it either because I want to be prepared for what He DOES have planned for me. Meanwhile, I'm here waiting... anticipating... for what lies ahead. I'm walking, everyday and will continue to walk in His vast glory too but I wonder if what I am doing... will serve for its purpose to others more than myself. My job for example: I help people, patients, the doctor, Mrs. Baylan, Rose <3, Valerie, Regis, Jasper sometimes lol and they are in fact godly people who surround me every single day and I love that. I love how Dr.Baylan preaches and teaches stories of the bible to the patients and they too have the same love. Its great! Life's great. I know God watches over me and I love my drive to and from work everyday because my car is my "praying closet" you know? And its so amazing to just talk to Him, trust in Him, be with Him, and hear everything He has to say to me. Its truely mindblowing how I can just ask and He'll answer right away. And I know He's there with me every second of every day of my life. I'm excited to grow and most excitingly plant seeds into others and watch them grow =]] I give my life to God to do with it what He will's in hope that soon I too will be sitting with Him in heaven.

<3 Z