It is God's Love & Grace

It is God's grace that is so amazing that it creates such an urge in my heart to continue to live through His love. Its overpowering sometimes... and sometimes I don't know what to do with it because I can't just told it all in. I've been listening to "How He Loves Us" -- David Crowder Band all day today... because that is OUR song. I didn't choose it, He did. So, its amazing. And so are the words... and I am so glad that He is jealous for me and how He loves us! Praise God Praise God Praise God! Although today wasn't as great as I thought it would be... I am SO glad that God can be there right by my side and fill me to the up most degree. He is there so overwhelmingly and is my provider and the LOVE OF MY LIFE! I don't know how to express so deeply the love that I truly feel in my heart for Him... except to spread it out to everyone who surround me... and even then... it's still not enough! Oh, how I truly Love you Lord... How I truly LOVE you Lord. Love you Lord. The word love can't even extend out to how much I actually feel for you in my heart and spirit. Oh, how He Loves Us. So unconditionally... what would I do without you? I can't even imagine... because you are that powerful and overwhelming that words nor imagination can express how my heart and soul ache for you, and you alone. LoveYouLord.

God's Movement In My Heart

So today was... interestingly crazy. lol but amazing. So, if you don't know already: There is this atheist group at UTSA that decided to do their little debut and have created a "Trade in your Bible for Porn" thingy. Well, of course, there was a LOT of debate. A HUGE debate! Hundreds of people gathered around preaching and criticizing. All this good stuff you know? Well! There was two main things that bothered me with this:

1. The "christians" who were condemning and criticizing the atheists when they should be doing the exact OPPOSITE and try to bring them closer to God instead of condemning them. Who are we that we have the right to criticize them? We were there once before, we were those sinners and nonbelievers at one point. We did not come close God because of those criticisms. But rather that love that was showed to us no matter our background or sinful past.

2. I don't agree with the atheists by publically bringing down other "religions" by, basically, making them give up their faith, the Bible, and trade it in for porn. For porn?! Ridiculous!!

but even through all this, there is God's greatness! First though, I must say that I am really disappointed with the believers that were there. Only because they were the ones doing the condemnation towards the atheists. We should be bringing God to them, showing them His love! His amazing UNCONDITIONAL UNCONDITIONAL UNCONDITIONAL love for them, and everyone! I just think that we, as believers, should be encouraging God's word and educating through the Spirit not condemning through the flesh. It is not God's intention for His word to be debated over.

As the day continued... another event that happened today that I thought was really sweet from the Lord was Him giving me the opportunity to go on a lunch date. With a man, who's name I sadly forgot. I was on my way to work and decided that I should go to Whataburger and eat before work. So, I did. And at the corner of Whataburger, there was a man, holding a sign that read, "Hungry. Anything Helps." I usually have cash and give it to them but I didn't have cash today. So I was like man... Idk... and I seriously think the Spirit took a great grasp of my heart and I rolled down my window and the words that came out of my mouth were, "I don't have any cash but I'm going to Whataburger and you could join me." Crazy... I never even thought of it. So, he meet me there. It was so nice. SO nice. This man was really homeless and lived under a bridge nearby and had 3 children. One got pregnant at age 13. So I am so so so grateful for God that He brought me this man and blessed me enough to bless him so he wouldn't be so hungry anymore. And maybe one day he will know that, everything will be okay.

God has really moved in my heart today and I appreciate every moment of it. Every single second of today. Many other details and scriptures and love about today but there is wayy to manyy... long... descriptions lol

I just praise you God, for the people that you bring into my life. I couldn't ask for better. I know you have your plan for my life, I just ask that you continue to captivate my Spirit and engrave your word into my heart! I pray for those who have also been with me though this journey, with their encouraging word and uplifting Spirit's. I love you all. I love you, Lord. <3

To Confess or Not Confess?

Okay, so I just spent about 2 hours reading all the posts under Van's status of determining whether we are forgiven and don't have to confess our sins anymore? Something like that. But anyways, point being, should we confess all of our sins or not? and WHy? Many views on this point that I read but mainly, everyone was stating that we don't need to be confessing ALL of our sins. I don't know if I believe that. I guess, YES, it's understandable that when we gave our lives to Christ that ALL of our sins are forgiven, the past sins, the present sins, and the future sins. Of course, that is the purpose of Jesus Christ! But as for confessing our sins to God and asking for forgiveness, I see it differently. I believe that God wants us to confess our sins to Him, to give Him everything and not hide ourselves from Him. He already knows all and has forgiven you for everything... but I don't believe that, that should be used as some sort of an excuse? I guess. I don't know any other way to put it. But, I believe that we need to be able to willingly humble ourselves before God... show Him His works in our lives. Being able to realize our sins and sharing them with God. Although, He already knows.
Kind of like: You find out something very serious about somebody, Person A, but Person B is the one who told you about that very serious situation. So you want to go to Person A and talk to them, hoping that they will trust you enough to be able to share that serious problem with you too. Even though you already know! You just want them to tell you.
We need to be able to go to God, just because we want to tell Him. Just because we want to communicate with Him and love Him. I don't know any other way to put it besides the fact that we should trust God that everything that is going on our lives to share our experience with Him. Confessing our sins, is NOT NECESSARY the bible never states that we NEED too, but I believe it can bring us closer to God.
Well, class is now over, and I should probably be paying attention a bit more... Hmm... oh well. Just continue to appreciate all that God has brought to you, and perhaps be humble and talk REAL to God. <3

Living Through A True God

So! The question being why I say God brings me all these WONDERFUL blessings into my life, as well as my troubles. Honestly, I think that God has set a reason for everything in my life. The good, and especially the bad. The bad because I trust, so overwhelmingly, that He can bring me through anything. Big or small. Everything is done through His will, and His will alone. Even then, the devil will try to come in and sweep me off my feet but I will always be strong through God and Jesus Christ who's spirit lives in ME. In us all. So we have the strength within us, to overcome all troubles that might be presented into our lives. So, I firmly believe that God brings everything into my life at certain moments, at certain times. And I, we, should always be ready for the unexpected because we are living in a world FULL of sin, FULL of lust, FULL of pride, exc. But, it is also FULL of believers, FULL of the Spirit, FULL of God's people, God has His timings for EVERYTHING. God brings us all our troubles and blessings so that we may one day turn it all around, and give it right back to Him and give Him all the praise, as we take no credit. Through God, we can most TRULY do anything, along with His will. Well, I'm kind of just rambling on right now, I'm sleepy, it's late so hopefully this all makes sense. GodBless. and Praise God for everything you have or don't have, want but don't need, the good AND the bad. <3

So, today I was in my writing composition class and my professor asked us to write in our "journals" that he never checks anyways T_T asking, "What is the most important thing to you in your life today?" And the only thing I could come up with was the following word for word:

Well, of course, God. I guess nothing else really matters after that. God brings me joy, He brings me peace, He brings me hope, and He brings me trouble. God brings me love, He brings me happiness, He brings me life, and He brings me horror. God brings me provision, He brings me confidence, He brings me strength, and He brings me battles. God brings me purity, He brings me sympathy, He brings me forgiveness, and He brings me times of weakness.

And I never got the chance to finish it because time ran out. Well Lord, it's all for you babyy. <3>

Oh How He Loves

So there is this song that the David Crowder Band sings called "How He Loves Us" I think lol I'm assuming... and this amazing thing happened while I was driving to work yesterday. I've heard this song many many times but this time, for some reason, it really hit me hard. I began to cry listening to it, out of no where! It was weird cuz that's never happened to me before but truly it touched my heart and soul in that moment and really feeling God's presence in my life and realizing how much He really does love us, with no judgment. On my way home from work that same day, yesterday, I heard it again on the radio and really just felt at peace with the Lord as my tears were rolling down my face.

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I don't understand how God can love everyone as equally and devotedly as He does, I love it. But that is the beauty of it I suppose. His unconditional love, I was readying in Joshua today about Rahab and the two Jew spies (I forgot what verses sorry) but she was a prostitute! That title is really degrading if you ask me, and yet she performs such a glorious act to protect the Jews and to keep them safe. If sinners are such sinners and even in that sin perform Godly acts of love, why shouldn't God love them? Also in Romans chapter 5 it says how even the circumsized men were unGodly and they were supposed to be living through God because of that symbolism right? Well it also states how the uncircumcised men who believed whole heartedly were seen circumsized through their faith and devotion to God. As long as your faith is in the right spirit and your love for Him is there, you are considered to be circumsized through God spiritually. We were such sinners that God had to send His only son, His own flesh, to die for all the sinners forever long. Jesus Christ, the only son of God! Died a gruesome death for us, without knowing us or the sins we will be committing, He died for us. We lived yesterday, we live today, we will live tomorrow, walking in forgiveness every second of our human lives because of that ONE man, who gave up His life for yours and mine. Love You Lord, and I thank and praise you for your sacrifice for me to be able to live today, in this very moment Lord, for YOU and no one else. I surrender my life to you Lord, every single day, and do with it what you will... =]]

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